Everytime I feel like I am sad or a little down...my friends always come forward and make me feel better!!! It is such a great feeling to have so many wonderful ladies (and one great guy) in my life! Tonight, I had a blessed night with my little Alicia!! It was kinda sad...she walked in and I blasted her with drama!! I needed to vent...and she was definitely there for me...well, after she went to the bathroom!! hehe!! The girl is withering away though....stop loosing so much weight! You will look beautiful in the wedding!! =-)Then, I talked to Krista twice today! She can make me laugh at anything! I was feeling a little down over some things that are going on or being said about me. These girls always have a way to make me smile again. My life is definitely going in the positive direction...a few people may not think that....but, it is! I feel right with God now. I feel that the negativity is out of my life and I can carry on with the positive. I make an effort everyday to not let people get to me and cause me to make the wrong decisions again. I am the type of person that does certain things without thinking sometimes, or I react out of jealousy and anger. I can truly say that the last 6 months...I have not done this. I do not try to hurt others with my words or blogs....no matter how tempting. I am truly happy with my husband and kids. I love growing together with him. I absolutely love my friends now. I feel like a flower that blossomed!! haha...not to sound too corny! I cannot deny that I miss one certain family that used to be in my life...as I look back...I was pretty lucky. But, there is so many lies, disappointment, or anger...that it just cannot be worked out. Then, on my side of the family...I have parents & a brother that I have not spoken to in 5 and 1/2 years. Do you realize how painful that is? The current problems I have, I would go to my mom with...and I don't have that. This would be the only thing I would envy other girls on...having a great relationship with their parents. I never want to hurt my children to make them distant themselves from me. I do have the rest of my family...aunts, uncles, cousins...but, not the three most important. My brother and I were so close growing up. I know his anger for me is justified. I let him down. I cry as I write this because it is too much pain to handle...my family and Christopher's family should be the most important part of our lives and our kids lives...and none of them are there. This was supposed to be a thankful blog...sorry. Good night. I pray tomorrow is a happier day.
Mar 17, 2010
Confusion...in 5 minutes!
Everytime I feel like I am sad or a little down...my friends always come forward and make me feel better!!! It is such a great feeling to have so many wonderful ladies (and one great guy) in my life! Tonight, I had a blessed night with my little Alicia!! It was kinda sad...she walked in and I blasted her with drama!! I needed to vent...and she was definitely there for me...well, after she went to the bathroom!! hehe!! The girl is withering away though....stop loosing so much weight! You will look beautiful in the wedding!! =-)Then, I talked to Krista twice today! She can make me laugh at anything! I was feeling a little down over some things that are going on or being said about me. These girls always have a way to make me smile again. My life is definitely going in the positive direction...a few people may not think that....but, it is! I feel right with God now. I feel that the negativity is out of my life and I can carry on with the positive. I make an effort everyday to not let people get to me and cause me to make the wrong decisions again. I am the type of person that does certain things without thinking sometimes, or I react out of jealousy and anger. I can truly say that the last 6 months...I have not done this. I do not try to hurt others with my words or blogs....no matter how tempting. I am truly happy with my husband and kids. I love growing together with him. I absolutely love my friends now. I feel like a flower that blossomed!! haha...not to sound too corny! I cannot deny that I miss one certain family that used to be in my life...as I look back...I was pretty lucky. But, there is so many lies, disappointment, or anger...that it just cannot be worked out. Then, on my side of the family...I have parents & a brother that I have not spoken to in 5 and 1/2 years. Do you realize how painful that is? The current problems I have, I would go to my mom with...and I don't have that. This would be the only thing I would envy other girls on...having a great relationship with their parents. I never want to hurt my children to make them distant themselves from me. I do have the rest of my family...aunts, uncles, cousins...but, not the three most important. My brother and I were so close growing up. I know his anger for me is justified. I let him down. I cry as I write this because it is too much pain to handle...my family and Christopher's family should be the most important part of our lives and our kids lives...and none of them are there. This was supposed to be a thankful blog...sorry. Good night. I pray tomorrow is a happier day.