For anyone that knows me...they know I am a happy and nice person. I truly (no lie)want the best for the people in my life. I am sure though, we all have that side that is not so nice! (PS-Christopher sees this side of me, he knows my deepest darkest thoughts...not many others) Last night, bible study really hit home! 1.Meaness always has a history! This statement is so true...it festers in your soul for a while, then it attacks when you may least expect it! The anger quickly turns into a grudge which can spread though the best of us.2. Meaness perceives a threat! Obviously, someone has threatened you or your surroundings for the situation that was created to become a threat to you. 3. Meaness catches like a virus! WOW! now this is so true! If someone is mean to you and then you are mean to the next person, then they are mean to the next person and so on! The virus will continue until someone makes it stop....YOU! 4. Meaness is curable! Now, this one is not so easy. I am suppose to identify my threat (rival) (hmmm, we know these people!) then, I am to write out "why" they are my rival, "how" much energy I am wasting on these people, and "how" can I fix it! The first three...I can do without a problem and really I don't waste too much energy on them...I recently received the closure that I was longing for. But, I do realize to be good with God...I must have a pure and forgiving heart! Therefore, I must dig deep and figure it out. If you choose to forgive a person is it okay to remain excluded from their lives...I think so. It clearly states in the bible to keep evilness out.
I am so excited about my new found relationship with my Lord! I used to be scared to discuss anything about my Christianity! Now, I am thrilled to share my thoughts! I truly could careless what negative judgements anyone has on me or my religion. I am happy. I am loved by a higher power that will never abandoned me. I have a close relationship with God. A relationship you cannot have with anyone in this world...not even, do I dare to say it...Christopher! My faith has made me realize that GOD gave me Christopher...he was a present that brought 5 more presents! How can I not put God first then! Without Him, I would have NOTHING! Even the friends He has now given me are gifts wrapped with a big bow! You are all amazing and I know you were hand picked for me! I love you all! I hope everyone has a heavenly night!