I read my first blog to Christopher and he thought..."too much information"...so, I guess I will delete it and write something new! I told you it would only be there for 1 or 2 days!
I do think Krista is right...this will be a nice way to document my life moments. It may be a little hard...due to having FIVE kids. AND, a husband that sucks the life out of me. =) Or maybe I suck the life out of all of us. I cannot sit home. I must be doing something everyday. Ryelon is the best baby...so, he is easy to bring anywhere! Keeping busy, keeps my mind off things.
First...
Today, I want to talk to Melissa. I had a dream last night about her leaving...more like a nightmare. I guess, I just don't believe she is leaving...and with my beautiful nieces. I miss all three of them tremendously! I am realizing that I may have been wrong about a few things...or maybe over-reacted. I know there is issues to handle...but, I love her so much...that they can all be fixed easily. I cannot allow people to get into my head and destroy what is rightfully mine! =) Melissa, if you read this ever (with you being gone...I will make you keep up with a blog page AND your myspace) than just know...you are so loved!
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I think I am driving my family insane lately...I am the type of person that is obsessed with outer appearances. I was making myself SICK lately (literally)...well, it was from the diet pills. I cannot handle being heavy. I do not care if I have "5 kids" or because "I am happy" It is just like that Pink song lyric "I just want to be skinny!!!!" haha....I know it will happen in time. I love to walk...but, ever since I started that...I have gained weight. SICK...how does that happen? Enough said on this subject...I will never bring it up again!
And so on...
A little bit about a happy subject for me! RYELON! he is such a cutie! He is walking at 10 months and 3 weeks. He always has a smile on that gorgeous face. He eats everything. He is my chunky monkey! I just found out right now...that the twins are sneaking him trix and pop tarts! Bad Boys!! haha... He claps and sings....but does not talk yet...except mama and dada! He gives high fives...so cute! Yesterday, we took him to Chuck E. Cheese for the first time he rode the rides and CRIED! We were shocked! He likes everything except barney or teletubby rides!! But, the pictures are adorable! Once April shows me how she designed this page...I will post some pics of it!
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April you are right...this is fun to do and enlightening! Hopefully, some people that read it will not use it to hurt me. I need to get some harder skin and not let people hurt me so much. Just like Michael Jackson says..."I have a heart and it hurts"! Which, I am not sure why I am so sad about his death...I do not know him...he had so much bad publicity. But, he was a terrific singer and performer. He had 3 beautiful children that are going to grow up without a dad or a mom. That is heartbreaking to think about...maybe I need to realize that ALL of my small problems will never add up to that. I want to live for another 60 years...because of my kids and Christopher! They need me!