Choices...

Well, Christopher calls me yesterday with news that I wish we would have received 3 years ago! He tells me, "They offered me the position!!!!" Most wives would be so happy and jump for joy. Christopher worked really hard with his company that he has been with for 14 years! He loves his job. He had to take and PASS many tests to get this position. Too bad, I cannot find the joy in my heart that he needs from me. I love how I am the first person he calls with this news...and I know he needs that celebration voice and attitude. But, right away I started thinking and getting anxiety. We would be forced to move to Palm Springs. Not in a year or a few months...but now! I am so scared and with every right. I have lived here since 1993. I know everything about my hometown. My kids are in amazing schools. Pulling my son out of HS, sounds so unfair to me. I went to three HS's. Not by my choice, and it was 3 miserable times. Madyson has so many friends that she has had for 3 years and Dayton and Caydon have the best 1st grade teacher EVER! Seriously, I love her! I have amazing friends that I would be lost without. And last but NOT least, my family right down the street. I cannot imagine not seeing them daily. Besides all of this, Palm Springs houses are priced ridiculous! I want the same amount of house I have now...for the same price! Also, I am not good with change. We will need to change all doctors, sports activities (that are already paid for) and so much more. I just don't think I can do this. But, what right do I have to tell him no? Especially, when they are phasing out his current position. I know I should be praying for an answer...but, then I am struggling with that lately. I know God wants to hear from us with everything...and I WAS doing that...all day long. Unfortunately, I have only spoken to God 2 times in the last month. It may not be good to go to Him when I need something...or maybe He is giving me this obstacle to bring me back to Him. I think it is time to take Beth Moore's advice and get on my face and pray! Good thing I vacuumed! It is so nice to have this blog...I will be able to look back and see the decisions I made...maybe they will be right, or maybe they will be wrong. That's how we learn.