This is a tricky one because I cannot put it in here or even say it out loud. Unfortunately, there is only two people that know my sin...which is Trisha and my Mother. That's where it will stay. God Knows I pray for forgiveness daily from Him. Everyone says that if you truly mean it from your heart, than He forgives you. I cannot forgive myself or forget. And, actually...I should not forget. I am sorry I cannot be more open with Day 3.
If I go more lighter on forgiveness...then it would be the angered words I spoke 2 years ago. One thing I have learned from it...never assume and NEVER ever send an email in the heat of the moment!