I felt like blogging again!

Today is such a weird day for me...emotionally! I am so happy about so many wonderful changes in my life. But, I feel I am making improvements while my other half wants to stay in the same place. I had such a wonderful talk with my mother-n-law last night. I truly miss the closeness I had with her. She is such an amazing woman & I know it will be the same very soon. Things just got twisted this last year...well, I am working on untwisting it with the people that mean the most to me. It is so confusing, I look back and I am so happy about many decisions that I have made...but, then there is a handful of decisions I have made...that I think to myself...what in the world was I thinking. Anger and resentment can be stronger than happiness if you allow them. It seems like this world allows the sin easier. It is more acceptable to hurt others than to love them. If you are too nice, people make fun of you. I just want to be nice. I just want to be happy...without any judgements. I have such a wonderful family. I continue to learn from my mistakes, but how do I get Christopher to realize his part in all of this. He is the most hard headed person I know. He always admits he should have listen to me...but, he never does. It is that "man" thing! I was not raised with believing the man makes the final decision. That is one thing I am happy with about my parents. It needs to be a mutual decision. We did not enter into this marriage with just the man saying it was okay...he NEEDED me to say yes!! Well, then he should need my approval on certain decisions. I see him changing. I see him becoming distant with feelings. Not with us....he thinks we are all he needs. That is so not true! I wish I knew how guys can turn off their feelings like that. He married the most emotional girl ever!! We are so opposite...maybe that is why we work so well lately. Well, this blog took a different turn! I have so much to look forward to tonight! I get to make dinner for 3 special girls and their 4 girls! I just realized...I am the only "friend" that has boys! Valerie has a boy...move closer to me!! Melissa and Krista need to hurry up and pop out their boys!! =) Love to all my family and friends...you all bring so much happiness into my daily life. Thank you for that!