Last night was so hard...bad news after bad news. The day was wonderful though. My kids won their last soccer game!! We all missed Madyson's goal because I was planning the trophy party. =( Dayton and Caydon ended their season with a record of 10 & 0!! Madyson with 8 and 2!! They are awesome! I guess I will get to the terrible part though, because most of us like to read about the negative, as I am finding out. (2 months of positive blogging, but I am SURE this blog will be copied, pasted, and sent!) Personally, I thrive off others happiness! =( As you can tell, I am not as happy as my last blog!! I am still happier than most though...to those that try to keep breaking our spirit. It cannot be done. 
The ones my heart breaks for....is of course, my poor husband...and then, all of you that focus on causing others pain. The ones that keep it going. I will continue to write what I feel in my blogs....that is why the top says "The Brandt Family"....it is MINE! Well, last night was dreadful....dreadful to hear one simple word that was said in the past..."okay". We always think "it cannot get worse"...I mean, seriously, it cannot!! But, as of last night, it does. =( It is alright though. My kids are going to get the BEST darn "Christ"mas ever! They mean the world to us...just not others. I was so angry last night....screaming and all.
Then the anger always turns to "whys?"....then the anger went to "bearing" with this situation. Madyson, Brandon, and I went to church this morning. Such a MOVING service!! It caught my heart and ran with it!! =) I even SANG! Yes, me!!!! I loved it! The service was about Romans. To Bear with, Build with, and Blend with! As pastor Tom is explaining things...I realized that I am even praying wrong!! You cannot pray for God to fix the situation. You need to bear with the people that are hurting you, build the situation up to God and then blend your family back together! Just because you re-state your opinion or speak a little louder doesn't mean the other side is going to agree! Even if you are right. Pastor Tom has made me a believer that there is no relationship that cannot be fixed. I am going to hold him to this...because as of today...I don't see that happening. And then, what if you DON'T want to fix that hurtful relationship. 
What if you are content not having that poison in your life...but, that poison is good for others. I don't know what to do with that. Hopefully, I can figure that out. I go to Bible Study tomorrow night! My last one until January 4th. I bought some material at the Christian store and a bracelet to remind me to pray daily. Well, thanks for listening to my vent session. I needed this. Also, thank you my wonderful April! I know you have your own bad situations too....but, I always appreciate you listening to my nonsense! 4 more days...and we can forget it all for about 7 hours!!! L♥ve to many!
“Hold on tight to God’s Word, and the Lord will enable you to prevail—to utterly defeat the forces arrayed against you. But you have to cling. You have to stand your ground and hold onto that sword with everything you’ve got.” ~Jennifer Rothschild~